The past month has been a hard one for me. I was feeling pain for many weeks on my right side. As a stay at home mom it was difficult because I could barley take care of myself and my daughter. My husband is very supportive and helpful when he is not working. But I spend most of my time laying down. Not something you want to do with a toddler at the beginning of summer.
After a while I went to the Dr., then the ER, and finally they told me I had a ruptured ovarian cyst. I was glad to find out what it was, but the only solution was to take a large amount of pain killer. This is something I did not want to do as a stay at home Mom.
So I have been taking some medicine to make the pain less but I still have pain. I want to be playing and holding my daughter more. Right now she wants to cuddle and I would love that but she keeps kicking and sitting and hopping on my stomach After seeing this post on facebook about Motherhood I am not alone in feeling that I could be more of a mother.
One of the sentences she wrote was "...find my identity in the God who trusted me with these kids in the first place.". While I may not have enough energy to do what I think my daughter needs, God has entrusted me with her. We are blessed to have her in our lives even when my body tells me I need to lay down most of the day.
I know there are many others Moms out there that have many more obstacles than a short amount of pain. I feel blessed to have friend and family who I can talk to and care about our family. Soon I will be on the other side of this season and onto the next. Bring it on. Until then I am going to just relax and enjoy my laying down time :).
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